I would like to tell you about my story first, so
you all will know what to expect or, at least, feel forewarned. It’s a
long story, like many, although shortening it was on my mind while I told
it. It is a complicated story and, I’ve been told, one of my best as far
as demonstrating the point it claims to make. I learned a great many
things by the acts and investigations required to write it down, and saw
how my own thoughts, once composed on paper, sometimes did not jibe with
each other. Oftentimes, I held outright contradictions to be correct, and
used them as principles for living and guiding my own life, and have since
seen this phenomenon at work in most people with whom I deal. So, this
story is a comparison of many modes of thought concerning a like idea, set
down as fiction.
The 100-thousand words have been set down in two
parts. Part One contains sexual content in more-or-less explicit scenes
which, I’m sure you’ll agree, are relevant and enhance the ‘feelings’ in a
contextually constructive manner. Expletives used throughout the story are
in character with their users, and offer one more way to contrast a
‘clean’ approach to life with the one considered ‘normal’. I do agree we
should not fear our sexuality. I disagree that it should be commercially
exploited and demeaned to where it has become a product whose appeal is
upheld by titillation promoted by our religious institutions. On this, the
reader must be the final judge: In retrospect, you can observe that, where
such scenes have been set down, I have preferred symbolic portrayal, or to
describe the inner feelings of those involved, over the physical cliches.
Part One
describes Rodney Mudge pursuing his relationships with two women in the
fashion covertly approved by our society (and overtly disavowed). Each
incident knocks over the next in a wave of rushing events to which, once
started, he can react only in the fashion with which he began. His
attempts to shore up his marriage with flimsy lies serve only to make him
appear contemptible.
Involved, as was the philosopher, Spinoza, in
pursuit of a mathematical description of God, Jon Van Deutsch will finally
decide that He is just as